dogg dayz

July 21
Dogg dayz!
Hey ya'll, howzit? I am living every day in eager anticipation of the next. I am thankful every time I wake up simply for the fact that I DID wake up. I am alive. I refuse to be sick. (although, my body seldom seems to agree with me) Here are the facts. I am sick, physically. It is hard, to put one foot in front of the other. It is hard, to feel like crap all of the time. It is hard, to not know IF I will ever get a heart. It is hard, to know that I am dragging you and my family through all of this. It is hard, to make plans for tomorrow. It would be soooooo easy to just quit. I never did like people taking the easy way out...

I don't want easy. Life is so much more than avoiding the "bumps in the road." Life IS the bumpy road. When it is all over, and you are remembering everything, the bumps are the memories!

I remember, one time, as a kid, I fell and cut my knee wide open. I needed stitches. Mom had to take me to the hospital. She needed to cover the wound, and could only think of one thing sterile enough to cover it. (it doesn't require a lot of thought, so I won't go down that road) I was in my early teens, and there was no way on God's green earth, that, I was going to the hospital with a Feminine Hygiene Product taped to my knee! Now, 25 years later, that is so funny. Mom and I laugh about it every once in awhile.

I hope I didn't embarrass her. But, don't you see? Without the story, it is just another scar. To me, that is living. This race all ends the same way for each of us. Some of us will fight to the last breath, some will slip away peacefully in their sleep. Regardless, we all leave something behind. It is not just bravado, when people say "I don't want a bunch of cryin' at my funeral. I don't want that either. I lived! (and, to my knowledge, will continue to do so.) I loved, I laughed (a lot). I hit those bumps at full speed. I hope this hasn't sounded morbid. I am trying to convey the fact, that, I love living. I am not gonna avoid the tough times, because that is God's plan, not mine. When I go, I get to meet God. How can any part of that not be great?

It is HOT! Yesterday it was in the mid 90's. The heat index was 108! Yikes! Today is better with a high of only 85 expected. Oh, yeah, we had severe storms last night with a lot of wind damage. It has been a strange year. I am used to hot summers. It is a fact of life. But I am not used to all the severe weather. So far this year, we have had to replace 2 skylights in my camper from hail damage. Our neighbor at the lake had to replace his awning because the high wind destroyed it. My neighbor, here at the house, had a tree split last night. I Know that this is just our turn in the barrel, and all will return to "normal", but it is so strange that there is a drought in the southeastern US, and forest fires in CA.

If one of you says "yep that is global warming" I am gonna say something not nice to you. How arrogant are we to think that we can destroy God's creation if it is not his will? How arrogant are we to think we can fix it? We all need to do our part, to be sure. Every little bit helps. But how do we explain what happened to the Dinosaurs? The only toxins in the air then, were natural gasses, and TRex farts. Is global warming real? I don't know. Are the ice caps melting? I don't know that either. What I do know is this...

What are you waiting for? I don't know anything. I can't solve the world's problems. But, I can sure pray for and about them...and you. Have a great day, and, as always, I love you.